Once Upon A Time
Unicorns and fairy dust make up all our dreams
Everything is perfection and you can't see the seams
Fairy tales are make believe to lose yourself in
The knight in shining armor is always a perfect ten
The princess is always saved and no one ever dies
And the dragon's always slain to great and joyous cries
But then the tranquil dreams turn to horrible nightmares
The magickal fabric of our world slowly crumbles and tears
The knight's shining armor rusts and loses its luster
He no longer fights with all the strength he once could muster
The princess loses hope and forgets about her love
Her life becomes chaotic and she's lost her snow white dove
The dragon slowly changes form and becomes a different foe
It transforms into the monotonous life we all suddenly know
Then one day the witch's spell is brought to a final end
The fairy tale dreams of yesteryear come back like a Godsend
The knight hangs up his armor and follows his lady fair
They ride off into the sunset on a beautiful winter mare
The dragon crawls into his cave and hangs his fiery head
He'll wait there for another fight in a life long since dead
The unicorns and pixie dust that made up all our dreams
Mold themselves back into history with all the other seams
Love's Eternity
In your loving embrace,
Wrapped in this heavenly place,
I know nothing of fear,
And I know no pain that causes a tear.
Could this be love’s eternity?
Is this forever’s sleepless city?
I could go on forever lying here with you.
Our bodies are made, we’re the perfect two.
As I stare at your slumbering face,
You inspire me to win life’s race.
I wonder what you’re dreaming of.
Can you see me my one true love?
Will you stay with me as long as I live?
Will you accept everything I have to give?
Although it’s not much,
Compared to your touch,
I’ll promise you this:
You’ll forever be my one true wish.
You’re what grounds me to this earth,
I’ve only existed since my birth.
No matter the price, no matter the toll,
Oh my love, you are my soul.
True Blue
My true grace and beauty you cannot see
Suppressed and protected is all that is me
Underneath the surface all the while
Lives my true nature: punk style
I live the life and have the soul
But my preppy mom is like a pole
She’s stiff and demanding
She’s always there standing
She watches over me as I shop
Saying, "No, not that top.
It’s not you, it’s just so…"
And then she stops with only a no
Allow me to dress in my own style of clothes
From my hair, to my shoes, hell even my toes
I love the look, it’s just who I am
Trust me mom, this isn’t some scam
Let me be who I want to be
Allow me to introduce you to the real me
I’m proud to say,
My name is Shelby K
My hair is colored and my spikes gleam
Everything fits, you can’t see a seam
Sure I’m weird, but it’s ok
You’re going to love me anyway
Drowning in this forgotten misery
Everything cries out for home
None of this is me in any shape or form
I don’t belong here
This isn’t my life
This isn’t who I am
This isn’t who I want to be
I cry myself to sleep at night
Homesickness wears down on me
I can’t take this much longer
Breakdown is near
Someone answer my pleas
Take me away from this hell
Take me to the place where I belong
Take me to my friends and family
Take me to my paradise away from here
Take me back to happiness and home
Help
One
As I look into the future with my eyes open wide,
I think back to all the firsts in my life
I remember my first kiss and realize I’ve come a long way
The first day of high school with my little group of friends
I hold it all so dear to my heart
I’ll cherish it forever
And even though I look back and see I’ve been through so much
As I look into the future, I realize my life’s just begun
Could you go through it,
Everything I’ve been through?
Love and loss, pain and heartache
All consuming my soul
I’ve known the pain of love
I’ve known the loss of love
I’ve known the heartache of loss to death
My heart cries out for something more than this
Whatever in this world was made for me is still waiting
My parents went their own ways and I bottled up my emotions
I became so frustrated
I became the cause of pain and heartache
Maybe I still hold a grudge
Maybe I still hold onto my pain
It was the only thing I ever knew for so long
I long to let it all go
It holds onto my aching heart
It’s a ball and chain
Is there a release for me?
Can I one day let it all go?
Can I know love and companionship from a man who understands my pain?
Could you go through it,
Everything I’ve been through?
Pain
Ocean waves keep flowing
The tide pulls us along
It's an unsteady rythem
Never settling
Always moving
It's the greatest mystery of all
Ask all you want
The answer isn't there
Some may never find it
The grains are too numerous to know
When the oyster finds one
The pearl can be made
Some are perfect
Others are tossed back
Begin the process over
Maybe one day the calm will come
Satisfaction can be complete
Find peace within your tulmultous ocean
Perfection in the strand of life's pearls
Life
Blind Faith
I jumped back in expecting the same
But I was wrong, it was a different game
My best friend has lost himself
He's become a danger to my health
Things started out like there was no change
But eventually he became strange
With him I was floating even when I dreamed
Now he's no longer what he had once seemed
Why did he let them get under his skin?
Why did he let them make us a sin?
He slowly repelled me to another man
The worst part about it: I willingly ran
We'd grown apart so very much
I'd found love in another's touch
Once upon a time, I though we would last
But now I see that's all in the past
I once trusted him with my heart and soul
My blind faith made me pay a hard toll
Now it's time for me to move on and be ok
I have to fall out of love in my own little way
Shrouded by darkness, hidden from light
The mystical creatures come out at night
Midnight is their time for play
Hide in your rooms, stay out of their way
They’ll come to get you if you’re out of bed
They’ll come to get you and mess with your head
Yes my darlings these creatures are real
A human’s soul is their perfect steal
Your parents are wrong to say they’re make-believe
All of your nightmares are not to deceive
They’re merely visions of the horrors to come
Your heart thunders like a pounding drum
Run little kiddies, flee for your lives
There’s no one around to hear your lost cries
Shrouded by darkness, hidden from light
The mystical creatures come out at night
Midnight Fright
HIM
While bluebirds sang their happy song
And the crickets played their violin legs
I fell for you and gave you my world
And I knew you felt the same
But I went away and allowed you to roam
You found a new self and left my guy behind
You demoted yourself to less than a boy
And in the process, lost the pieces to my heart
I don’t know if I’ll be able to find it all
You shattered me and left me to the wind
I gave you my most precious gift
You willingly received it with love
You promised you’d take care of me
So why did you let me down?
Just because your "friends" don’t approve?
I am who I am and you said you’d love me for me
What changed in your heart to turn you away?
What made you leave me out in the cold?
You left me to find my own way
You left the man I loved frozen in time
I don’t know if he’ll ever return
And I don’t know if he’ll be welcome
I do know that you were my first everything
I do know that I’ll move on
And what comforts me the most to know
Is knowing you won’t be in my heart forever
Love and loss
Bear her cross
Strength and hope
Have become her dope
This world is shit
All she wants is one more hit
She can’t see tomorrow
She’s swallowed by her sorrow
Nothing’s left to save her soul
Hell has finally taken its toll
She’s gone from here
There’s no one left to shed a tear
Her life is crushed
Her voice is hushed
She listens closely for some hint
She listens close for a remembered glint
He lives in heaven
Her dad left when she was seven
She was his little girl
She was his perfect pearl
Now she’s all alone in this cold, cruel place
She can’t even remember her mother’s face
The street claimed what was left of her
She no longer wants to cause a stir
And with her last breath on this earth
She asks herself what her life was worth
Daddy's Girl
True Love
Twirling for hours
Can’t stand straight
My knees are weak
This feeling is great
So wonderful is love’s embrace
I can’t breathe until you hold me
Look deep into my soul
This is true love’s decree
A lot of distance lies between
Most sisters aren’t as close as us
An inside joke keeps us laughing for hours
Not one person can break what we have
Deep respect and love for each other
A lot has changed, but our friendship remains the same
Long Distance Friendship
Why?
Why do I still love you?
I want to hate you.
Why won’t this feeling go away?
It hurts.
Why won’t your face stop haunting me?
It’s too beautiful.
Why does your voice always ring in my head?
It sounds like our summers together.
Why do I have these wonderful memories of us?
I want to forget them.
Why did you break my heart for them?
You don’t need them.
Why didn’t you keep your promise to me?
You said forever.
Why can’t I move on?
You were my everything.
Why can’t I get over my pride and tell you what I think?
Because I think I still love you.
When you look in the mirror, what do you see?
Is it the idea of perfection conceived by you,
Or do you only see the flaws?
Your reflection never lies because it is you.
Broaden your vision and look around
Do you see the world as it is, or how it should be?
Do you see the flaws in everything around you?
Why can’t the eyes of your world look past?
The old days are gone, the millenium is here
There should be no "wrongs" in humanity
Why does it matter what color you are?
Why is sexual preference so uptight?
Why is religion so jaded?
Why is "different" not the norm?
What is normal?
Why should your size even matter?
Who decides what’s right and what’s wrong?
Look at the world as it should be
See people for who they really are
Stop looking for stereotypes as comfort food
Change the world by changing you
My Viewpoint
The Day the World I Knew Changed Forever
Dedicated the the memory of September 11, 2001
I sat and watched as the world I knew was changed forever. I watched with hatred burning in my heart for the people who could do this to us. I wanted to cry. I wanted to scream. I wanted to love, hate, run, help, hug, kiss, hold anything and everyone. Questions poured through my head like Niagara Falls.
Why?
Why would some have so much hatred towards us to cause this much pain?
How?
How could they slaughter so many people?
Didn't they know?
Didn't they know that those people were mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, cousins, friends, lovers, dreamers, fighters, PEOPLE? They were regular, everyday people going about their regular, everyday lives.
Who?
Who could harbor such pure, manifested hatred to do something so evil? Evil. That is the only word to use to describe what those people did to us.
Now I look at the twisted remains through the TV and the photos and I see all these lives that were interrupted, stopped, by evil.
Now hatred fills my heart along with the pain and the American pride. I used to believe that my world and my pain were the only things that mattered. That nothing could touch the pain my heart held onto for so long. How was I to know that one day in time, when evil almost conquered us all, could change that thought so much that it is now only a fading memory?
I hate, I love, I know. Just like all those people that lost their lives that day I sat and watched as the world I knew changed forever.
Why can’t the world see past the appearances
There’s so much more to me than meets the eye
I know I’m not a cookie-cutter Barbie doll
I know my hair isn’t perfect
I don’t have a personal stylist
I know my skin isn’t flawless
I’m a regular person
Get over it and look past my flaws
I’m full of love with plenty to give
I’ve been told I have a great personality
I try to be nice to everyone I meet
I’m a great listener and I love to talk
I have plenty of friends who respect and love me
I’m confidant in who I am
I don’t need to dress slutty to get people to notice me
So please world, look past your vain tendencies
Look past the breasts and the lips and the eyes and the hair
Look past the fact that I’m a size 16
And look at the fact that I’m happy with me
Personal Ad
World Peace
This universe is a sad, cruel, and lonely place
Treason and anger makes the world go round
Back-stabbing friends are always lying in wait
Beware them all, they could be one
Horrible thoughts to think, I admit
Sadly, in these times, it’s the norm
Always desperate for a glimmer of hope
Always disappointed when it never comes
Love is hard to find and keep
Family is a foreign word
Strength is never what it seems
The Ice Age has come again
Our hearts may never thaw
It’s terrible to know the truth
Ignorance really is bliss
Enjoy it while you have it
World peace is an unknown concept
Cool, calm, refreshing
A beautiful breeze you cannot see
Warm, bright, tranquil
A time you wish would never end
All good things must come to and end, though
The sun disappears behind dark clouds
The wind picks up and begins to whip
Scary, loud, horrendous
The storm has come again
I run and hide in the safety of my room
The storm can’t get me here
I’ll shut my eyes real tight
My hands slam tightly over my ears
Make it stop!
Make the storm go away!
Bring back the nice breeze!
The storm hurts my heart!
The slamming doors are too loud!
The screaming wind echoes in my mind!
STOP!
The clouds go away
The sun comes back out
It’s temporary
The storm always comes back
It never fails
You can count on my parents to bring back the storm
The Constant Storm
Understand
I don’t understand your mood swings
They’re worse than mine
I don’t understand the mixed signals you send
They keep me off balance around you
I don’t understand why I tolerate you
You’re not exactly my type of guy
I don’t understand how you can piss me off so bad
Then turn around and make me smile
I’ll never understand what goes through your mind
You’re crazier than anyone I’ve ever known
I can’t understand how you’re still on my mind
I was so sure I’d gotten over you
Stop pushing and pulling and make up your mind
Help me understand why I keep you around
Stupid, gullible boys
You flock to the package with the least wrapping on it
She’s not even real
What you see is a fake
Turn away and open your eyes
Look at the truth that’s right in front of you
All she is, is "open for business"
She can’t give you what you need
She’ll toss you aside once she gets what she wants
I can see past her lies
I can see past her smoke and mirrors
See the truth that stares you in the face
That’s not what you want
She’s a flirt and a tease
Her promises mean nothing when the sun comes up
Stop being so foolish
She devours emotions and spits them back out
Her path is littered with the corpses of broken hearts
Turn back now and forget her deceptions
Get out before her man-eating ways take you too